11. Nov 28 - One of the gals we took shopping calls me and asks to
borrow my house & kitchen to cook lunch for Patrick on Dec 4. How
could I say no to that request? (One of the prophetic words was that
some guy would come to my house and want to fix it, and it would drive
me insane, cos I can't get rid of this person. I had been avoiding
throwing parties.) So I said yes even though Dec 3 was the day of the
ball. My house needed work and
much cleaning. I had not finished unpacking since I moved. I said yes to
her and immediately hired two of my students to come over to clean and
decorate for Christmas, might as well. We tried to play hide and seek a
lot, notice the word "tried." We covered up a hole in the wall!
12. Dec 3 - Sure enough .. there was the first party at
my house and Patrick counts off all the things which need fixing. !! I
was told to watch out for someone who would come to my house and see
the state of disrepair it is in. This person would want to fix it. I'd
get pretty flustered with this person and can't get rid of him.
It can't be him, really?
The ball was awesome. No other guy asked me to dance and he was really
surprised. He had to explain to some people we weren't a dating couple
but strictly dance partners only. Great. I thought yay, I can be myself
and I'm off the hook. For the first time in a long time, I felt secure with a man. I felt like a thousand bucks and something precious to be cared for. I didn't mind feeling like a trophy, led on and off the dance floor. Esther might have found her king.
I speak with a friend who can see from the Lord. He said he saw me in a red dress. I said that I did wear a red dress to the ball. He asked if it was sparkly. I said that it wasn't really sparkly but I had a silver scarf, wrap. He said okay. He also saw two lights, a red and a green light, and the red light was glowing. He said in Air Force terms, the red light is given before they are to jump out of the plane. It meant they were near the drop zone or right over it, and anytime the green would come on, and it meant JUMP. Uh oh.
I post a couple pics on Facebook of the ball. My friend called me back. He said that wasn't the dress he saw. So he asked whether I had another red dress, with some black and gold, almost an Oriental design. I said, "Umm yes, err.. I have such a dress but it's for my wedding. You just described my Chinese wedding gown." UH OH.
13. Dec 5 - We go to the Sunday School
party and I'm plugged into a church. Awesome! We spend the whole day
together and have spent every Sunday 8am-9pm together since.
14. Dec 11 - We go to the OKC Nutcracker show. It's sold out but we get two free tickets. Lord's favor! Patrick steps into my world of concerts. :)
15. Dec - I go to Alabama. He sends me to the airport. Takes care of my
An-An and my car. An-An loves him and becomes his lap cat. An-An gets her training to live with a guy. We get
closer cos he was concerned that I was slightly depressed. Deer meat and other goodies start appearing in my
freezer/fridge. Dec 28, I had a chance to share what had happened in my past before. We drive around to look at Christmas lights, something I haven't done in 8 years. We attend a New Year's Eve dance together.
Right before I left for AL, I brought the wedding dress over to my friend's house. He laughs. He had seen it before.. Yes, the Spirit showed him.I confirmed it.
16. Jan - Dance lessons and church. Nothing unusual. We plan to go visit IHOP-KC together.
17. Feb 3-5 - First weekend we went up to IHOP-KC. He got sick and I ended up missing the Friday service to stay with him. I didn't want to leave with his car, in case, he needed to get medicine or food. We sit on the loveseat couch (not touching) and watched the service on my iPad. Yes, there was some tension there ... I wasn't totally ignorant.
He gets three
prophetic words, very interesting. Whatever was said to him just confirmed things I had already noticed. The Lord holds him in high regard and heaven keeps a close eye on him. The apt we rented was interesting.
The only way to get to the bathroom was through the master bedroom which
would be his! You get the humor in this.What was God trying to say or train me for?
Monday, August 20, 2012
God is a Matchmaker - How I Met My Husband
I am my beloved's and He is mine.. Song of Songs. God is a matchmaker and author of the best fairy tales. If not for dreams, prophetic words and encounters, we would have missed each other. The Lord had told me that my story would be a combination of Ruth's and Esther's. It would be so unbelievable that our children will not believe it. Here is a the rundown of events as they happened.
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My left shoulder had been bothering me severely for the past year. At the last piano recital I played, I was told that God wasn't going to supernaturally heal it this time and I had to go see a doctor. I hated to have to spend money. I avoided the doctor's office for a month until I got tired of having to take students the Social Security Office in OKC. Right before going to the doctor, on September 26 - I had a dream in which the Lord told me to watch out for 2 men about 6 ft tall, had something to do with the Air Force. I saw my orthopedic on Sept 30 and he was around 6'4". No big deal with the shoulder, tendonitis he said. A steroid shot and 4 weeks of physical therapy.
1. Oct 28 - My last orthopedic appt and the doc clears my shoulder. I went ballroom dancing to celebrate that night. It was a costume dance so I had a mask on. Met someone there who was an excellent dancer. He didn't ask for my contact info so I just figured well, see him at another dance. I had a blast! Nobody could figure out who I was.
2. Oct 30 - I went to Council Road Baptist church. I told my friend that there's one date I won't turn down, if a guy came and asked me out to ballroom. Won't care who or what he is, just want to go dancing.
3. Oct 31 - I was teaching at 10:00 am. Someone walks up to the music building, my classroom to look for me. It is Patrick. I guess with only my name and workplace, it was the only way to find me. He wanted to let me know all the regular ballroom dances in OKC. So awkward to have it all play out in front of 6 students.
4. Nov 1 - I get an email from Patrick asking me to a formal ball on Dec 4. He said to call him to let him know. I did lots of checking on him and yes, he is in the Air Force.
5. Nov 2 - I accept the invitation so long as I could practice. I found out that there would be lots of prominent people of OKC at the ball. He suggests I go to church with him or check out Council Rd Baptist. HAH!
6. Nov - we figure out a few practices and I find out during our first practice that he takes care of international students at his church. He was wanting to do something for them at Thanksgiving. I told him I used to host lots of parties for that and would be willing to help.
7. Nov 13 - I visit the intl student ministry with him.
8. Nov 18-22 - I was in Scottsdale AZ for a meeting. That was where he was stationed before in the Air Force. Had email or calls everyday from him. One in particular bugging me to go Black Friday shopping with the students and him. While I was at the meeting, part of a dream came to pass. I had dreamt I went in search of a bagpiper playing Amazing Grace. When I found the piper in the dream, the music was coming from a wedding. The Westin had a piper every evening at 5:00 pm. Yes, I went in search of the piper and as soon as I found her, she played Amazing Grace. As the meeting ended the next day, I left the conference center to the strains of Amazing Grace again.
On the last day, I was here I distinctly heard the Lord question me. "Where are you?" I replied, "Scottsdale, Arizona."
"Yes, but where are you?"
"Arizona."
"What is Arizona?"
"The desert"
"Also known as?"
"The wilderness" As soon as I said that, I heard Jon Thurlow's song lyrics repeat over and over. It goes - "I know the end of the story, I come up from the wilderness, leaning on my beloved's" Something is happening, but I don't know what.
9. Nov 25 - We spend 12 hrs chaperoning 4 girls shopping. We co-ordinate our outfits for the ball.
10. Nov 27 - I went to Council Rd Baptist and figured I was never going to plug in into that church cos I didn't know anyone. Wanted to call Patrick after church to let him know I would go to church with him next Sunday. He beat me to it. Called and said, "You are coming to church with me next week. We are going to the intl Sunday School party after church. I already told them you will be there. What food can we bring?" Very funny invitation, more like an order.
"I need my dance partner there. I promised them we would show them a couple of moves." WOW! I never promised anything but boy, this person is insistent.
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My left shoulder had been bothering me severely for the past year. At the last piano recital I played, I was told that God wasn't going to supernaturally heal it this time and I had to go see a doctor. I hated to have to spend money. I avoided the doctor's office for a month until I got tired of having to take students the Social Security Office in OKC. Right before going to the doctor, on September 26 - I had a dream in which the Lord told me to watch out for 2 men about 6 ft tall, had something to do with the Air Force. I saw my orthopedic on Sept 30 and he was around 6'4". No big deal with the shoulder, tendonitis he said. A steroid shot and 4 weeks of physical therapy.
1. Oct 28 - My last orthopedic appt and the doc clears my shoulder. I went ballroom dancing to celebrate that night. It was a costume dance so I had a mask on. Met someone there who was an excellent dancer. He didn't ask for my contact info so I just figured well, see him at another dance. I had a blast! Nobody could figure out who I was.
2. Oct 30 - I went to Council Road Baptist church. I told my friend that there's one date I won't turn down, if a guy came and asked me out to ballroom. Won't care who or what he is, just want to go dancing.
3. Oct 31 - I was teaching at 10:00 am. Someone walks up to the music building, my classroom to look for me. It is Patrick. I guess with only my name and workplace, it was the only way to find me. He wanted to let me know all the regular ballroom dances in OKC. So awkward to have it all play out in front of 6 students.
4. Nov 1 - I get an email from Patrick asking me to a formal ball on Dec 4. He said to call him to let him know. I did lots of checking on him and yes, he is in the Air Force.
5. Nov 2 - I accept the invitation so long as I could practice. I found out that there would be lots of prominent people of OKC at the ball. He suggests I go to church with him or check out Council Rd Baptist. HAH!
6. Nov - we figure out a few practices and I find out during our first practice that he takes care of international students at his church. He was wanting to do something for them at Thanksgiving. I told him I used to host lots of parties for that and would be willing to help.
7. Nov 13 - I visit the intl student ministry with him.
8. Nov 18-22 - I was in Scottsdale AZ for a meeting. That was where he was stationed before in the Air Force. Had email or calls everyday from him. One in particular bugging me to go Black Friday shopping with the students and him. While I was at the meeting, part of a dream came to pass. I had dreamt I went in search of a bagpiper playing Amazing Grace. When I found the piper in the dream, the music was coming from a wedding. The Westin had a piper every evening at 5:00 pm. Yes, I went in search of the piper and as soon as I found her, she played Amazing Grace. As the meeting ended the next day, I left the conference center to the strains of Amazing Grace again.
On the last day, I was here I distinctly heard the Lord question me. "Where are you?" I replied, "Scottsdale, Arizona."
"Yes, but where are you?"
"Arizona."
"What is Arizona?"
"The desert"
"Also known as?"
"The wilderness" As soon as I said that, I heard Jon Thurlow's song lyrics repeat over and over. It goes - "I know the end of the story, I come up from the wilderness, leaning on my beloved's" Something is happening, but I don't know what.
9. Nov 25 - We spend 12 hrs chaperoning 4 girls shopping. We co-ordinate our outfits for the ball.
10. Nov 27 - I went to Council Rd Baptist and figured I was never going to plug in into that church cos I didn't know anyone. Wanted to call Patrick after church to let him know I would go to church with him next Sunday. He beat me to it. Called and said, "You are coming to church with me next week. We are going to the intl Sunday School party after church. I already told them you will be there. What food can we bring?" Very funny invitation, more like an order.
"I need my dance partner there. I promised them we would show them a couple of moves." WOW! I never promised anything but boy, this person is insistent.
God is Faithful
My ministry would lead me straight to my husband .. yes, it did happen. So much has happened that there is almost no way to write everything down in a sitting. Check out my other blog for the story.
Friday, November 5, 2010
My Weekend at IHOP-KC (Day 2 - Evening)
It would be my first time in the auditorium that I've watched on tv for months. I had been following the IHOP-Awakening services on tv and have been very blessed from the teaching and testimonies there. I didn't know that you had to get there very early to get a seat in there. It was pretty full by the time we got there and it was a little difficult to find a seat. I believe the Lord placed me where He wanted me to be that evening.
I didn't feel the need to go forward for prayer because I believe that the Lord had delivered me from my affliction the night before. I just need to believe in faith that it is done. As I was standing and praying in worship, I get a tap on my shoulder from a young lady. She said she felt the Lord was telling her to tell me a verse and some words. She had her bible open to Matthew 13:8 - "But others fell on good ground and yielded a crop: some a hundredfold, some sixty, some thirty." She said the Lord also wanted her to tell me that I am good ground and I am a good seed. She said, "I don't know who you are, where you are in your walk and how long you have been a Christian but the Lord says someone planted good seed in you and you are good ground. That seed is growing because you are good ground." So she said she felt that she was also to pray for me and we prayed together.
After the prayer, I asked to read the verse myself again and my eyes fell on Matthew 13:9 - "He who has ears to hear, let him hear!" As soon I read that, I pointed at it and said, "This verse is truly for me." And she said, "I was about to tell you that." Whoa, Lord. My mind is blown. I don't know how to process this. I questioned the second prophetic minister but now it is truly been confirmed.
Several other people prayed for me as I admitted to battling afflictions for a long time. Then there was a call for those who were struggling with fear to raise their hands. I did. I have been going to work with fear everyday since August. I was in great fear that I would lose my job or that things at work would become unbearable.
The Lord had a lot to say in this matter and two young ladies came to pray for me. Wow, what prophetic prayers they were praying. They were expressing the thoughts in my heart that I was not brave enough to pray out loud for.
After they finished praying, one of them told me she heard the Lord speaking to her clearly, "I hear this repeatedly - "I am Your husband. I am Your husband." The Lord is saying that over and over again. As my husband, it is His duty and delight to defend you and protect you. He will provide for you. The Lord says He has heard your prayers, and pleading and He sees the cry of your heart. He will answer all your prayers and all the things you have pleaded for. He will fulfill them for you. He will take you to new heights and do new things for you. I see a boldness in you to preach the gospel. You need confidence, not a confidence in yourself but a confidence in the Lord, secure in His love."
"The Lord says you have ears and you do hear Him."
WOW. Okay Lord, if you say one more thing, I'm going to blow up because my capacity fuse has just been blown. Can I really take anymore of this love? I had no way of processing all this. There are no words to describe what I felt or was thinking. Indescribable, incomprehensible, all-consuming God. Everything I heard from random strangers today all pointed me back to Him.
God truly loves ME. I've known it in my head but today I know it in my heart. I sleep well this night and wonder what more could happen the next day.
I didn't feel the need to go forward for prayer because I believe that the Lord had delivered me from my affliction the night before. I just need to believe in faith that it is done. As I was standing and praying in worship, I get a tap on my shoulder from a young lady. She said she felt the Lord was telling her to tell me a verse and some words. She had her bible open to Matthew 13:8 - "But others fell on good ground and yielded a crop: some a hundredfold, some sixty, some thirty." She said the Lord also wanted her to tell me that I am good ground and I am a good seed. She said, "I don't know who you are, where you are in your walk and how long you have been a Christian but the Lord says someone planted good seed in you and you are good ground. That seed is growing because you are good ground." So she said she felt that she was also to pray for me and we prayed together.
After the prayer, I asked to read the verse myself again and my eyes fell on Matthew 13:9 - "He who has ears to hear, let him hear!" As soon I read that, I pointed at it and said, "This verse is truly for me." And she said, "I was about to tell you that." Whoa, Lord. My mind is blown. I don't know how to process this. I questioned the second prophetic minister but now it is truly been confirmed.
Several other people prayed for me as I admitted to battling afflictions for a long time. Then there was a call for those who were struggling with fear to raise their hands. I did. I have been going to work with fear everyday since August. I was in great fear that I would lose my job or that things at work would become unbearable.
The Lord had a lot to say in this matter and two young ladies came to pray for me. Wow, what prophetic prayers they were praying. They were expressing the thoughts in my heart that I was not brave enough to pray out loud for.
After they finished praying, one of them told me she heard the Lord speaking to her clearly, "I hear this repeatedly - "I am Your husband. I am Your husband." The Lord is saying that over and over again. As my husband, it is His duty and delight to defend you and protect you. He will provide for you. The Lord says He has heard your prayers, and pleading and He sees the cry of your heart. He will answer all your prayers and all the things you have pleaded for. He will fulfill them for you. He will take you to new heights and do new things for you. I see a boldness in you to preach the gospel. You need confidence, not a confidence in yourself but a confidence in the Lord, secure in His love."
"The Lord says you have ears and you do hear Him."
WOW. Okay Lord, if you say one more thing, I'm going to blow up because my capacity fuse has just been blown. Can I really take anymore of this love? I had no way of processing all this. There are no words to describe what I felt or was thinking. Indescribable, incomprehensible, all-consuming God. Everything I heard from random strangers today all pointed me back to Him.
God truly loves ME. I've known it in my head but today I know it in my heart. I sleep well this night and wonder what more could happen the next day.
My Weekend at IHOP-KC (Day 2 - Daytime)
When the love of God chases you down, there is no other response but to cry. I didn't bother to put any makeup on on Friday because I knew the deep wounds of my heart were exposed and things were raw and sensitive. It would not take much to cry this day. You're taught to expect to hear from God and expect things from Him when you go on a retreat. God was more than prepared for me as well. He knew why I was there and it was Him that was drawing me unto Himself. There was one thing that I accidentally left at home - my watch, but I'm glad because the Lord planned everything then.
Today is the official start of my weekend with IHOP. I went and registered, got my wrist band and went to the first session. The speaker was Eddie and he would speak on the basis for day and night prayer. The opening of the session was enough to answer some of my pressing questions. He asked for anyone who is in a leadership role to identify themselves. I did. He mentioned a scenario that shouldn't be happening during our conversations with God. As leaders, we represent God on earth. We are His mouthpiece, His hands and we act as one.
"What if God was like this: "Did you think I wanted you to preach that? Use that bible verse? Did you think I wanted to heal that person? Did I want you to pray? etc." It would be a terrible way to live." Yes, that's how I thought about God.
"On the other hand, what if your conversation is like this: "God, did you want me to preach that? Should I have used that bible verse? Should I have laid hands and prayed for that person? Did you want to heal that person?" It would also be pretty terrible to live this way." WOW. This has how my prayer life has been and these hit home quickly. I started crying again cos those were such lies because God does not question me like that and He has entrusted me with His word.
The rest of the session I remained pretty much introverted and I was not very social that day. There was a lot on my heart and mind. I had to grab a hold of the truth, if not, I'd burn out in the ministry. After lunch, there was another session and it would be followed by our scheduled time in the prophecy rooms.
Usually, I would be very open to hearing prophetic words but with so much on my heart and mind, and also thinking that I had been making so many mistakes, I was feeling like a bad student about to receive a report card. We were ministered to in groups of three by two people. I had the prophetic words recorded this time because I knew I would need to hear it again for it to sink in. There was a chance I'd be too teary to listen carefully.
The first person gave me Psalm 63:3 "Thy lovingkindness is better than life." She said she saw that I was painting bright colors - red for the fire of God, green for the life of God and blue for the Spirit of Truth. She said I was also dancing and the Lord said He was going to give me a new dance. I will leap like a gazelle on mountains like in the Song of Songs. I will leap to new heights. She also said the Lord said I was a good servant and He is pleased, very pleased with all the things I have done. He sees and He says it's a job well-done, I have done well in the workforce. He is very pleased with me. Needless to say, the tears just start flowing. I can't stop them.
The second person gave me another verse that I don't remember now. She said the Lord said I'm in a season where He is dealing with a lot of heart issues with me. He is preparing me for the next level and is preparing me to be His bride. The Lord said I'm doing what I'm supposed to be doing, taking up my cross every day and dying to self. He said I'm like a seed which had to be put in the ground, broken so that something new will come out. She said she saw a flower coming out from the ground. This second one was a little hard to believe. I asked the Lord for confirmation on this one.
I've been cornered three times at it's only 4 pm. There will be more to come that evening during the healing service. I'm glad I recorded the words because I needed to hear them again later that evening.
Today is the official start of my weekend with IHOP. I went and registered, got my wrist band and went to the first session. The speaker was Eddie and he would speak on the basis for day and night prayer. The opening of the session was enough to answer some of my pressing questions. He asked for anyone who is in a leadership role to identify themselves. I did. He mentioned a scenario that shouldn't be happening during our conversations with God. As leaders, we represent God on earth. We are His mouthpiece, His hands and we act as one.
"What if God was like this: "Did you think I wanted you to preach that? Use that bible verse? Did you think I wanted to heal that person? Did I want you to pray? etc." It would be a terrible way to live." Yes, that's how I thought about God.
"On the other hand, what if your conversation is like this: "God, did you want me to preach that? Should I have used that bible verse? Should I have laid hands and prayed for that person? Did you want to heal that person?" It would also be pretty terrible to live this way." WOW. This has how my prayer life has been and these hit home quickly. I started crying again cos those were such lies because God does not question me like that and He has entrusted me with His word.
The rest of the session I remained pretty much introverted and I was not very social that day. There was a lot on my heart and mind. I had to grab a hold of the truth, if not, I'd burn out in the ministry. After lunch, there was another session and it would be followed by our scheduled time in the prophecy rooms.
Usually, I would be very open to hearing prophetic words but with so much on my heart and mind, and also thinking that I had been making so many mistakes, I was feeling like a bad student about to receive a report card. We were ministered to in groups of three by two people. I had the prophetic words recorded this time because I knew I would need to hear it again for it to sink in. There was a chance I'd be too teary to listen carefully.
The first person gave me Psalm 63:3 "Thy lovingkindness is better than life." She said she saw that I was painting bright colors - red for the fire of God, green for the life of God and blue for the Spirit of Truth. She said I was also dancing and the Lord said He was going to give me a new dance. I will leap like a gazelle on mountains like in the Song of Songs. I will leap to new heights. She also said the Lord said I was a good servant and He is pleased, very pleased with all the things I have done. He sees and He says it's a job well-done, I have done well in the workforce. He is very pleased with me. Needless to say, the tears just start flowing. I can't stop them.
The second person gave me another verse that I don't remember now. She said the Lord said I'm in a season where He is dealing with a lot of heart issues with me. He is preparing me for the next level and is preparing me to be His bride. The Lord said I'm doing what I'm supposed to be doing, taking up my cross every day and dying to self. He said I'm like a seed which had to be put in the ground, broken so that something new will come out. She said she saw a flower coming out from the ground. This second one was a little hard to believe. I asked the Lord for confirmation on this one.
I've been cornered three times at it's only 4 pm. There will be more to come that evening during the healing service. I'm glad I recorded the words because I needed to hear them again later that evening.
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